Life, as it happens..

I am running on reserve these days. I am completely exhausted, thanks to the fact that DH is in Seattle all week, leaving me to take care of the kids. Siddhant is super whiny, he wants to be just held everywhere - he's joined to me at the hip every minute after we come back from school. On top of the general tiredness, my knee is killing me and I've developed a sudden rash near my mouth as I had stopped paying attention to the fact that I am allergic to Lanolin products - I've been applying any chapstick that I can get my hands on, forgetting to check it's ingredients.

I feel I should quit work and stay at home for few months just to recover from post-pregnancy stress, moving stress and every other physical stress, but if I quit, then we can't quite afford to send kids to the day care, so then am I gaining anything if I had to watch them ? Everyone tells me, you'll get a vacation in India, but will I ?? I have big doubts! I think what I need is some person to come clean, cook and wait on me all day to get rid of the stress! But the reality of right now is that I need to get back to work so I put on my headphones, listen to some music that will make me forget that I have stress and focus on work at hand! After all they say, it's all in the mind, keep a positive focus.. lets see how many minutes my positive attitude lasts today!!

Talk about being in the wrong place at the wrong time! That's how I would describe our situation when we bought our Colorado home 6 years back and even now when we've put it up on the market. We started looking for a home at the peak of the housing market bubble - little did we know that we should have maybe waited for 2 years for that bubble to burst. It's not that I regretted buying a home! Most Indian's that I know are very calculating, waiting for years to buy a home either because they follow the market or wait to get more stabilized in this country like getting a green card! But we're more like mavericks, we do things when we want to. I love the way my husband lives his life - so spontaneous! He enjoys what he has, when he has them as opposed to me who whines most of the times about things :) So like everything, I am upset on the fact that we will take a loss on my first house when we take the company offered buyout offer next month!

Our house went on market in Mar 2011 and we have 4 months to market it before we can accept the buyout offer by the company. Granted that the buyout offer that came with our relocation package is kinda a saver in the sense that we don't have to own the liability of the house now that we moved to Texas but still it's very low compared to what we bought the house for, forget about the additions that we did! We've had so many showings but not a single valid offer - it makes me think if we were stupid to buy the house in that location ? or the house that we loved so much and were proud of, is it not really that great ? or we're just unlucky to not have many people come through who'd like to stay in that area! More importantly, I wonder if we made the same mistake when we bought our Texas home ? DH never thinks so much, he moves on and lives his life but unfortunately that doesn't come so easy to me :(