Life, as it happens..

I am running on reserve these days. I am completely exhausted, thanks to the fact that DH is in Seattle all week, leaving me to take care of the kids. Siddhant is super whiny, he wants to be just held everywhere - he's joined to me at the hip every minute after we come back from school. On top of the general tiredness, my knee is killing me and I've developed a sudden rash near my mouth as I had stopped paying attention to the fact that I am allergic to Lanolin products - I've been applying any chapstick that I can get my hands on, forgetting to check it's ingredients.

I feel I should quit work and stay at home for few months just to recover from post-pregnancy stress, moving stress and every other physical stress, but if I quit, then we can't quite afford to send kids to the day care, so then am I gaining anything if I had to watch them ? Everyone tells me, you'll get a vacation in India, but will I ?? I have big doubts! I think what I need is some person to come clean, cook and wait on me all day to get rid of the stress! But the reality of right now is that I need to get back to work so I put on my headphones, listen to some music that will make me forget that I have stress and focus on work at hand! After all they say, it's all in the mind, keep a positive focus.. lets see how many minutes my positive attitude lasts today!!